one last wish

"i don't want to reassure
what i want to condemn
complicity comes by so easy it scares me
its second nature to man
just look what they're calling living this year
just look what it wears
second-hand it makes no demands
while i hold what's most precious to me as it falls
but this is mine
this is my last wish
and i trust it like an instinct
anger flushes through my body
settles into my hands
doubled with a tension like wire
i only want to descend
like the rain like train when it comes leaving nothing to waste
i close my eyes
i close my eyes
and brace myself to say "yes" again and again and again
WISH"