work made me half a person.
breaking out of the cycle.
work.sleep.fuck.eat.work.drink.drink more.sleep.try to forget.being tired.stressed.bored.annoyed. not challenged. falling deeper and deeper. losing passion. stagnation. sleep. depression. lethargy.missing. freezing.sweating.cursing. wondering. listening.
i don't want to lose my cool,
all those years i went to school.
for nothing.
i do get nothing.fulfilling is just the will to change. to move on, to start again.
another bullshit refrain.
no more bonds.

ich schwanke zwischen herbst-blues und verdräng-existenzialismus, unruhe und lethargie.