work made me half a person.
breaking out of the cycle.
work.sleep.fuck.eat.work.drink.drink more.sleep.try to forget.being tired.stressed.bored.annoyed. not challenged. falling deeper and deeper. losing passion. stagnation. sleep. depression. lethargy.missing. freezing.sweating.cursing. wondering. listening.
i don't want to lose my cool,
all those years i went to school.
for nothing.
i do get nothing.fulfilling is just the will to change. to move on, to start again.
another bullshit refrain.
no more bonds.

ich schwanke zwischen herbst-blues und verdräng-existenzialismus, unruhe und lethargie.

holiday not in cambodia, but in israel...

SEE YOU IN DECEMBER!

back on track....song of the day "Lost" by pierced arrows

something for the adolescent heart:

Dreams we had that disappeared
Lost along the way
Pursuits we had way back when
Now they just seem gray
Friends that came and went with time
Never to return
Worlds we could not overcome
No longer our concern
(chorus) Where did they go?

Broken hearts, aching pains
Sleepless nights and more
Waiting by the telephone
Standing at the door
Never thought we'd get through that
Somehow we survived
Even in the worst of times
Love kept us alive

Whims that blew our thoughts awry
Things we couldn't change
Feelings we thought couldn't die
Seemed to just get strange
Regrets we had no second chance
Ever to repair
Don't seem so important now
No one really cares

kopf kino

schalt dich aus.
weiß jemand wo der an und ausschalter ist?
oder noch viel besser der hauptsicherungskasten?
kopfkino ich will deine filme nicht mehr sehen.
raus.

your false heroes.

Kuriosität Berlin