your false heroes.

Kuriosität Berlin

one last wish

"i don't want to reassure
what i want to condemn
complicity comes by so easy it scares me
its second nature to man
just look what they're calling living this year
just look what it wears
second-hand it makes no demands
while i hold what's most precious to me as it falls
but this is mine
this is my last wish
and i trust it like an instinct
anger flushes through my body
settles into my hands
doubled with a tension like wire
i only want to descend
like the rain like train when it comes leaving nothing to waste
i close my eyes
i close my eyes
and brace myself to say "yes" again and again and again
WISH"

grow up

there's always a new beginning to things.
things we thought dead, already caught up in the big depression called life.
as a matter of fact you know that life is short, but don't be stubborn and try
to force everything and everybody. there are different speeds.
i tried too hard. but failed. i tried to be patient. and succeded. once in my life.
i am always 1 2 3 forward. and you know that this is unstoppable. this feeling
that life should be so much more. BUT.
although i never will give you the chance to know. with you i feel like a mountain. once in my life. like a mountain. big, stable and with great passion for consistency. i am calm and quiet, because i don't even think about getting a response. that's the mountain in me. why not enjoying this rare moments of pure mutual understanding, this rare seconds of comforting bolts running through your venes. something's missing, i would have said. BUT.
i the mountain, once in my life, will try not to want more. there's always a new beginning to things. bigger, now i understand.